Unhelpful Words

I carried this unhelpful word around with me for years. It was hiding under every decision and action I took.

The things that have helped me start to get a better handle on my health are psychotherapy, sea swimming, talking to people I trust, getting sober, reading about psychology and finding ways to express myself creatively.

I journal 3 pages of whatever shit is in my head each morning which has let me see my patterns and some triggers I wasn’t even aware of. None of them were easy to start but I wouldn’t want to stop any of them now.

To find faith that things will work out and to surrender to that is where the grace for ourselves comes from. Overthinking and anxiety hate that and work hard to make me forget.

There shouldn’t be any bullshit stigma to being open about our struggles. We all have mental health.

The dark times pass. Everything we need is right here, we just have to battle with our brains sometimes to allow ourselves to see it. There’s magic in all things.

Thank you for caring about me when I couldn’t do it for myself x

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